Sometimes, (often actually) I wonder if opportunities that do not work out are truly for a reason, or if it is just chance. Today I received a phone call from West Potomac High School, about a coaching opportunity for JV Lacrosse, that I had applied for about 4 months ago. They initially called me and then I did not hear from them again until Today.
I was originally bummed and then pissed that I did not hear from them (again) before. One of my biggest goals in life is to be an athletic coach, preferably football (soccer) or American football (football), but I will take what I can get until that opportunity comes. I want to ride that career all the way to do a professional coaching gig comes along. I am going to need a great deal of High School coaching experience to qualify for a college position, and then a lot of that experience before I can coach MLS, and then finally move on to England, which would be the ultimate goal.
I had basically given up on West Potomac High School up until this morning, and quite frankly I was not really that thrilled to hear from them, even though I put up a good phone face (polite and feigned excitement) until the call was over. My coaching resume is not as strong as it could be, but I am a better overall coach then most people and that is not a personal belief that is a fact. I know sports, I know skills, and I know strategy. The only sport I could never coach is basketball as it bores the life out of me (all those fouls,get annoying, street ball is better). I have coached lacrosse before 2 years at the pre-high school level, so Jv would be the next step up.
So, I am supposed to meet with the head coach on Thursday, to discuss my resume, and qualifications, and again I am not feeling any real interest in a program that is looking for a coach less than a month before training begins. I had already closed the door on the opportunity in September when they called me the first time. How do I get myself back into the mental state of getting the position. How do I get myself excited about something that no longer excites me. I know that I can rise to the challenge, but after waiting months for them to schedule this interview I really do not feel pumped anymore.
As I have like two followers, both of whom know me pretty well you both know my situation as it comes to employment. I do not know if you are aware of how many times I have come close to getting a position only to be passed over for somebody else or the position ends up being eliminated. I do not know if my reluctance to be excited about this opportunity is that I fear facing yet another round of rejection, or if I have already lost complete interest in the position because I feel they actually rejected me months ago and are now trying to fill the vacancy after not getting the candidate that they previously wanted.